Double Vision

what the hell is this fucked way of being?
you can tell I've some mucked way of seeing,
but if you want to know how it is,
then sit right back, here's the biz.
I sense many things in my life
but I sense them in opposite ways.
it can bring internal strife,
but it might somehow enrich my days.
I can tell when I want something plain
but that's not all I get from my brain.
I also can hear the refrain:
"this is stupid!" - you know what I'm sayin?
I take actions I know are not right.
I make peace when I know I should fight.
but the way that it feels is disjoint
and I often lose sight of the point.
there's a truth in each side, so you see;
but the proof seems to hide deep in me.
when I face every choice
I just can't tell which voice
should prevail,
so I fail,
and rejoice.